Burning in paradise

Category: writing

  • Sometimes I think the democrats are playing stupid, like they aint got no tactics. No one is gonna limit the war budget once it’s on and popping. People are death, bombs were dropped. We’re going to have to see this one to the end. Another worthless war and another american taking the bullet. It’s shame really. Finally just got back to peace, after covid-19 and america soliders back at home from the war in afghanistan, we didn’t have five minutes before the american government jumped head first into another war.

    Simultaneously, on the web, I’ve seen videos of a black solider celebrating the purchase of her first house. She was dancing. Something feels oddly strange about that. It’s not a consequence. I can’t trust it. I also saw a video of another solider crying as she realized that she going actually going to war.. I want to pray for her but I don’t believe my prays will protect her. They say war is hell, and how do you prepare someone for hell?

    I think that why I never could join the military, not being able to be in full control. Not being able to have a full spectrum of my own will at an unfair price. Don’t get me wrong I think what they do is admirable, to march into war, ready or not to face death and destruction. But having to prostrate yourself to the US government is dancing with the devil. I hear of how they treat black people, I can visualize what they’d do to the arab.

  • My anti-hero

    Though some people might find the actions of Rodney Hinton Jr. unacceptable in today’s modern society, I believe he’s the anti-hero American needs right now. A black Father willing and ready to risk it all for this son, in an America that sees black men and women as conventional for the America way of life rather apart of it. There is a general sense of being made to feel that we are outsiders in our homeland and somehow we’ve been trespassing since inception. The sight of us warns, malice, unaware psychological hatred, disrespect any being on this earth in his right mind wouldn’t stand for. And some how, as a group, we haven’t seeked revenge.

    How many people haven’t died at the hands of a police officer supposedly “protecting and serving” the community? We’re clearly not there community. Police departments have set up a business invoicing the lives of black men and women with damn near immunity, because nothing changes. Nothing changes but the name of the person being shot, or arrested, or being beaten half to death. And “punishments” are not enough to absolve the repeated habits of our public servants. Leaving the victims and their families with less than they had; less money, less family, less belief in the justice system, less love.

    At some point America should’ve know there’d be a Rodney Hinton Jr. I’m sure I can find another man that killed a cop. But the way that Rodney Hinton Jr. did it had a little extra on. It feels honorable. Like a samurai hunting down the killer of teacher, it’s not just pure revenge. Someone that means the world to me was taken from me and the only way to repay him is kill his killer.

  • get me to tomorrow

    I was listening to The fast life garage while I was cooking, it tripped me out to listen to max schaaf and his view on how he approaches building bikes, the craftsmanship and how he approaches the business side of things. I know him from skateboarding, really falling in love with his personality after watching his epicly later’d. He seemed like a smart dude, passionate about skateboarding, opinionated. He has a point of view. He rubbed shoulders with some of skateboarding’s greats and still is cool enough to film the homie on the vert ramp.

    Though he could probably make more money, making trendy shirts for his company 4Q and what not, he’s here for the bikes. When he got into his love for bikes years ago, it was a difficult journey figuring it out, banging his head across the wall. Taking courses, talking to people, and a little divine intervention, just chasing after, it got him here. Continuing to the old ways of sharing information and building relationships with people who actually know what the hell there doing out here. It’s not all business with him, how big corporation influenced us to believe it needs to be to have a successful business.

    There are actual people behind these “products”.

    His approach towards bike building and craftsmanship aren’t as money hungry. It’s passion first.

    Listening to that got me fired up, it reminded me of why I do the things I do. Why I got into things in the first place. For me. To get me to tomorrow. It’s not about what the other guys think, whether he’s the elder on the block or the young buck. It’s about making something, anything that you can look at and be like, “fuck man, I made something cool with these two hands” I didn’t exist and now it does. Doing it the way you believe it should be done.

    But it what tripped me out was that he’s authentically open minded, meaning he might not like someone approach towards bikes or whatever but he can recognized that guy or gal is just chasing the same thing he is. Maybe not in the same way, but to the best of their ability. He willing to admit he’s wrong even if he feels different personally.

    You can’t change everyone to think the way you think. You just end up pigeon holding yourself.

    Which today is a rare thing to come across. Most people feel a type of certain way about something and believe that it should be like that for everyone. As long as that person isn’t in your face about it, and even then, does it matter?

    Shoutout to Max Schaaf, keep killing it!

  • Minnesota & ICE

    First and foremost, I am proud as a US citizen that people are hitting the streets, staging protest and trying to get corporation’s and the government’s attention with strikes and economic withholding on today, January 30th, 2026. I believe these are important steps to take in trying to get these corporations to listen to the general public.

    With that being said as a Black American, it’s important to acknowledge that these kind of actions should have been happening years, if not decades ago, when government agents and police officer killed multiple black and brown Americans in cities all over the United States. Today we are seeing large amount of white Americans standing up and speaking out now that they see that men and women like Renee Good and Alex Pretti (Americans that look like them) can be shot and killed like they’ve been doing to Black and “minority” Americans for decades.

    And even in their protest, we can still see the division of racism at work as they have keep names like Keith Porter Jr. out of the forefront. Names like Liam Conejo Ramos a 5 year old preschool detained by ICE or Geraldo Lunas Campos that was choked to death while in custody at a detention center. Not including a list of names that most Americans aren’t aware of that have suffered, died, and torture in Detention Centers,

    The people of Minnesota are chanting things like, “Say her name” and I wonder if they understand that this chant was first used with Breonna Taylor in 2020 in her wrongful murder.

    I hope the people of Minnesota understand that these are just their first steps in the fight of injustice that have been happening since the wrongful lynching of Emmett Till and prior. Now it’s time to do the knowledge, read and understand what has happened in this country and what continues to happen in this country on a daily basis again the black and brown.

    Since 2018, we’ve heard of women being raped and sexual assault in these detention faculties and the powers at be stating that it’s not responsible for it’s staffs actions. Not until March 2025 did CBP state that they would have zero tolerance policy on rapes and sexual assaults. Even though rape and sexual assault have been a disgustingly unlawful action for years, so how when these women are considered, “illegal alien” it deems them to be treated as subhuman without rights.

    Doing the right things isn’t something that lawful or unlawful, look at our history: Fugitive Slave Act, the Black Codes, Jim Crow. And right now the president and other government officials sanctioning these occupations from city to city causing chaos, causing civil unrest, in the “name” of “justice”. Lying to the American people about what happened even those we all just saw what happened online via video recording.

    Agencies like ICE and CBP are nothing but fraternities for racist bigots and losers wanting to cause harm. Sometimes again their own raza, because somehow they see themselves as superior. When actually the same racist they’re wanting to be, would arrest them and confine to detention center if they didn’t have the same uniform. Agencies like ICE and CBP are only the latest agencies causing injustice in American communities. Acting as a modern day gestapo. But don’t forget about the action of the FBI and CIA in the 60s, The NSA and their usage of the Patriot Act, and now Corporations like Google, Meta, and Open Al using your consumer information against you to drive up prices and gouge you at every corner.

    These offensives on the American people run deep and I hope that you understand what it means to stand up and fight. Educate yourself, look up information, unlearn harmful stereotypes, and don’t believe everything that politicians and news anchors are spewing over the air ways. They want us to be divided and fight over insignificant things like race. When the real issues are much larger.

  • a sin tax on only fans workers?

    if you’re not aware james fishback wants to charge only fan workers specifically 50% of their income for participating in sin, allegedly.

    that’s the most loser shit I’ve ever heard because it doesn’t solve anything. if your have an issue with people, men specifically, spending money on these models and sex workers, find out what are the circumstances that are causing these men to feel like they have to spend hundreds of thousands of dollars for female attention. because thats the real issue. 2. if you implement this “sin tax” these models and sex workers are just going to move out of florida and the people are still going to be subscribed but now you lose money on the taxes you were already charging. 3. are you not aware of what fucking state your governing? Miami is one big ass orgy on drugs. there’s the porn industry, cam girls, prostitution, etc. but you want to focus on a subset of people because their the “it” thing right now. reactionary policy is going to get at the root of the cause, if that’s what you really want to do.

    edit: sophie rain actually has a point

  • like who likes you

    as a teen and even as a young man, you chase women and people that you want or desire to have around you. you might like their physical attributes or the idea of having them in your life. you might even dream about having this person next to you because of what you’ve built them up to be in your mind but a lot of times you’re just chasing that, a dream. a figment of your imagination, and that person is nothing like you’ve built them up to be. and because you’re chasing something that isn’t real you allow yourself to get stepped on and become less of yourself to please them. i heard a pimp once stay like the one that likes you. because that person is with you because they have a genuine interest in being with you. they’ve looked at you and said i like this person so they accept you for who and what you are. there is no chasing, no games to be played. everything that’s done for each other is out of appreciate, love and care. with no hooks at the end of their actions trying to get something out of you. go where you are celebrated and no just tolerated, things will be much smoother and you’ll find that the love you develop for one another is natural.

  • blind faith

    i was listening to a grits and eggs podcast and they were speaking on faith stunting a person growth and it got me thinking. because at one time my faith was stunting my growth and i have seen people, like my father, faith limit and or restrict them because they can’t see beyond what the church has told them. i had to step away from the church because i was at alter crying every weekend.. because i’m being told by my parents that i’m a bad person, that if i don’t listen to them that i was going to be punished by god and ultimately go to hell. being a child and having no understanding of the world around you and not being able to question anything, your worldview become very small. you just start to do thing because that’s what you’ve been told to do, not understanding your own autonomy or having personal respect. you just follow what everyone around you is doing because thats what seems right.

    man once stepped away and educated myself, began to understand what and who i am, where my people come from. i was able to love myself and respect myself because my faith didn’t supersede everything. and looking back it made me angry that was forced into the church without guidance of the actual world. I don’t know my lineage, or my grandmother, i don’t have family stories to pass on to my children. all i have is guilt for trying to pursue the things that make me happy and a long list of things i have to unlearn to continue to grow into the person i want to be. unfortunately i have to step away from my father because the church supersedes the relationship he has with his children. for him there is no question the church. and reading anything other than the bible is a disservice to myself. it sucks for real but it’s a sad truth. and no one, no matter who they are is worth me staying ignorant. I’ve been ignorant, and i’m upset i was so ignorant for so long, if only i had the opportunities for critical thought, and the understanding on reason.

    a person has to be able to question and ask why. blind faith is not faith if you can think for yourself. anything reasonable and sound should be able to be questioned and not shun you for having any questions, big or small.

  • America has a problem with crossing the line. for years americans have used politics and religion to cross the line and then try and return to their day-to-day lives as if what the did was moral or right. and it’s been allowed, turned a blind eye to, permitted in some insistences. then when that same line is crossed to infringe on their rights they sympathy and understanding. they want revenge, they want to get even. it’s an eye for an eye on the land of free. some much so that it’s citizen are blind to their neighbors and community members. pushing others into isolation and hysteria because when you aren’t of anything, you have nothing to lose. instead of us americans coming together on issues that can benefits us as a country, health care, standards of living, minimum wage, we fight at the sight of our perceive like rival gang member. fighting and killing each other for a cause long forgotten and a moment of prideful ignorance because we justified in what were doing, because the other side is wrong. but ain’t nobody bigger than the program, if you cross the line, someone else is going to cross the line to get even. if you kill mines, best believe i’m going to kill yours. is the American way. it’s in our leaders, it’s in our institutions, our news, our school, our people, our children. if a kids at the playground right now gets pushed, they’re going to push back. as a country we can’t play the moral high ground, go to church, and indulge in disorder all in the same day. either let it all go to shit, as we go an eye for an eye to the end or lets stop the lies.

  • live laugh love

    earl is always someone i’m excited to hear from in or outside of music. he never does what you expected him to do. sonically he’s been down a path that that’s reminiscent of mos def and mf doom, where the beat might have you say, “what the fuck is this?” if you’re not familiar. but if you stay and listen closely you find more than what meets the eye. artist like earl have always had a place in hip hop. they may not reach pop music status but definitely cause a moment of, “hold up i need to check this out before i move on with my day”. by design earl doesn’t love the spotlight but understand the balance of being forward facing when the time is right to present his work to the audience of hip hop. he’ll pop up here and there with moments and hip hop will nod their head in approval or laughter and then it back to the dark alleys of hip hop where he looms making music and putting on artist like mike and mavi. artist that are great rappers and artist but also don’t fit inside what is “popular” by the mainstream, and may not want the attention of the mainstream. artist like earl can still kind of move around without causing riots unlike their counterparts like a drake or Kendrick. earl can rap at the same level when it comes to bars and rhymes but he’s not selling the flashy image or lifestyle that comes with being a rapper, he’s selling himself and his truth.
    just this weekend earl has dropped a suprise album with little to no promotion just as tyler did a few months ago. with an interview with the new York post via their popcast. 10 songs and about 25 mins out audio. i’m excited to sit with these songs as see what secrets unfold in the coming days.

  • trump’s raid of dc

    the increased military presence in D.C. isn’t going to change the city in the long term. America loves taking a military approach with everything as our military has been one of our best assets. but all that does it make things happen with force. and forcing Americans to do anything usually results in a large amount of push back. i don’t think you change a cities culture by having more agents and officers making more arrest. that’s just going to cause a larger distrust between citizens and law enforcement. targeting high volume areas where young adults go out to drink and have a good time, doesn’t make me feel safe, it makes me want to avoid d.c. all together. and agents targeting lower income communities where law enforcer knows that they don’t have the public trust seems more predatory than anything else.
    to “fix” the crime problems of d.c. you have to create opportunities for people to make money and have self-worth and have love for the communities that they are in and apart of. like a lot of us cities, the cost of living is beyond what the average American can afford, and rather than fall behind people are going to start taking risk to make up for the difference.
    mobilizing military and government offices on everyday people is only going to cause descent