Burning in paradise

KRS-One x. Talib Kweli spread the knowledge

September 1st, 2026

KRS-ONE has been somewhat of a myth to me. Of course I’ve heard the name, and I had heard and see enough to know he is akin to a founding father of hip-hop. He’s seen it all, a historian of hip hop, and political activist, a teacher. Who your favorite rapper claims to be. Today he sat down with Talib Kweli & Tef Poe. Here are couple of things that stood out to me:

KRS One start with saying that most Americans aren’t as American as they claim to be. In the our declaration of independence it says that, “It is our patriotic duty to revolt against tyrannical power” but at this point in America it’s the politician would rather cozy to the tyranny instead of revolting. Saying, “These people never win, so they puff up their chest” they just fake it till they make it.

He also touched on some of the same issues that were happening in 1963, in Dr. King’s speech, are still happening today. A continuous conversation that I’ve been seeing and hearing about online in a bit of an awkward realization. Though about 60 years have passed since Civil Right, American find themselves talking about the same issues, “were not reading our own history”. We are suck in a cycle that doesn’t progress.

what is the actual philosophy of hip-hop? “to go back to peace, love and unity… and safety having fun”

peace: when we were back in the hood, we didn’t know we were broke. We were just living getting by. We weren’t chasing money and status like today

love: if you don’t love what you do, you won’t last long in it

unity: I don’t have to like you, but we can agree on this issue.

KRS-One actually spits the knowledge of what the words hip-hop actually mean. Originally on the recording, Hip Hop Live. Now that I think about I don’t think that anyone has ever told me or if I even care to really look up a definition of hip hop. I mean who was I gonna ask, Merriam-Webster?

“Hip means to know, it’s a form of intelligence. To be hip is to be update and relevant. Hop is a form of movement. You can’t just observe a hop you got to get up and do it. Hip and hop is more than music. Hip is the knowledge. Hop is the movement, Hip and hop is intelligent movement or relevant movement. We’re selling the music. Write this down on your black books and journals. Hip hop culture is eternal. Run and tell all of your friends. An ancient civilization has been born again. It’s a fact. I come back every year. I get newer. I’m the dust on the moon.”

So much more was said but your going to have to watch it for yourself
Willie Lynch Speech: The Making of a Slave

September 1st, 2026

*for informational and educational purposes

Greetings,

Gentlemen. I greet you here on the bank of the James River in the year of our Lord one thousand seven hundred and twelve. First, I shall thank you, the gentlemen of the Colony of Virginia, for bringing me here. I am here to help you solve some of your problems with slaves. Your invitation reached me on my modest plantation in the West Indies, where I have experimented with some of the newest, and still the oldest, methods for control of slaves. Ancient Rome would envy us if my program is implemented. As our boat sailed south on the James River, named for our illustrious King, whose version of the Bible we cherish, I saw enough to know that your problem is not unique. While Rome used cords of wood as crosses for standing human bodies along its highways in great numbers, you are here using the tree and the rope on occasions. I caught the whiff of a dead slave hanging from a tree, a couple miles back. You are not only losing valuable stock by hangings, you are having uprisings, slaves are running away, your crops are sometimes left in the fields too long for maximum profit, you suffer occasional fires, your animals are killed. Gentlemen, you know what your problems are; I do not need to elaborate. I am not here to enumerate your problems, I am here to introduce you to a method of solving them. In my bag here, I HAVE A FULL PROOF METHOD FOR CONTROLLING YOUR BLACK SLAVES. I guarantee every one of you that, if installed correctly, IT WILL CONTROL THE SLAVES FOR AT LEAST 300 HUNDREDS YEARS. My method is simple. Any member of your family or your overseer can use it. I HAVE OUTLINED A NUMBER OF DIFFERENCES AMONG THE SLAVES; AND I TAKE THESE DIFFERENCES AND MAKE THEM BIGGER. I USE FEAR, DISTRUST AND ENVY FOR CONTROL PURPOSES. These methods have worked on my modest plantation in the West Indies and it will work throughout the South. Take this simple little list of differences and think about them. On top of my list is “AGE,” but it’s there only because it starts with an “a.” The second is “COLOR” or shade. There is INTELLIGENCE, SIZE, SEX, SIZES OF PLANTATIONS, STATUS on plantations, ATTITUDE of owners, whether the slaves live in the valley, on a hill, East, West, North, South, have fine hair, course hair, or is tall or short. Now that you have a list of differences, I shall give you an outline of action, but before that, I shall assure you that DISTRUST IS STRONGER THAN TRUST AND ENVY STRONGER THAN ADULATION, RESPECT OR ADMIRATION. The Black slaves after receiving this indoctrination shall carry on and will become self-refueling and self-generating for HUNDREDS of years, maybe THOUSANDS. Don’t forget, you must pitch the OLD black male vs. the YOUNG black male, and the YOUNG black male against the OLD black male. You must use the DARK skin slaves vs. the LIGHT skin slaves, and the LIGHT skin slaves vs. the DARK skin slaves. You must use the FEMALE vs. the MALE, and the MALE vs. the FEMALE. You must also have white servants and overseers [who] distrust all Blacks. But it is NECESSARY THAT YOUR SLAVES TRUST AND DEPEND ON US. THEY MUST LOVE, RESPECT AND TRUST ONLY US. Gentlemen, these kits are your keys to control. Use them. Have your wives and children use them, never miss an opportunity. IF USED INTENSELY FOR ONE YEAR, THE SLAVES THEMSELVES WILL REMAIN PERPETUALLY DISTRUSTFUL. Thank you gentlemen.”

Willie Lynch: LET’S MAKE A SLAVE

It was the interest and business of slave holders to study human nature, and the slave nature in particular, with a view to practical results. I and many of them attained astonishing proficiency in this direction. They had to deal not with earth, wood and stone, but with men and, by every regard, they had for their own safety and prosperity they needed to know the material on which they were to work, conscious of the injustice and wrong they were every hour perpetuating and knowing what they themselves would do. Were they the victims of such wrongs? They were constantly looking for the first signs of the dreaded retribution. They watched therefore with skilled and practiced eyes, and learned to read with great accuracy, the state of mind and heart of the slave, through his sable face. Unusual sobriety, apparent abstractions, sullenness and indifference indeed, any mood out of the common was afforded ground for suspicion and inquiry. Frederick Douglas LET’S MAKE A SLAVE is a study of the scientific process of man-breaking and slave-making. It describes the rationale and results of the Anglo Saxons’ ideas and methods of insuring the master/slave relationship. LET’S MAKE A SLAVE “The Original and Development of a Social Being Called ‘The Negro.’” Let us make a slave. What do we need? First of all, we need a black nigger man, a pregnant nigger woman and her baby nigger boy. Second, we will use the same basic principle that we use in breaking a horse, combined with some more sustaining factors. What we do with horses is that we break them from one form of life to another; that is, we reduce them from their natural state in nature. Whereas nature provides them with the natural capacity to take care of their offspring, we break that natural string of independence from them and thereby create a dependency status, so that we may be able to get from them useful production for our business and pleasure.

Willie Lynch: CARDINAL PRINCIPLES FOR MAKING A NEGRO

For fear that our future generations may not understand the principles of breaking both of the beast together, the nigger and the horse. We understand that short range planning economics results in periodic economic chaos; so that to avoid turmoil in the economy, it requires us to have breadth and depth in long range comprehensive planning, articulating both skill sharp perceptions. We lay down the following principles for long range comprehensive economic planning. Both horse and niggers [are] no good to the economy in the wild or natural state. Both must be BROKEN and TIED together for orderly production. For orderly future, special and particular attention must be paid to the FEMALE and the YOUNGEST offspring. Both must be CROSSBRED to produce a variety and division of labor. Both must be taught to respond to a peculiar new LANGUAGE. Psychological and physical instruction of CONTAINMENT must be created for both. We hold the six cardinal principles as truth to be self-evident, based upon following the discourse concerning the economics of breaking and tying the horse and the nigger together, all inclusive of the six principles laid down above. NOTE: Neither principle alone will suffice for good economics. All principles must be employed for orderly good of the nation. Accordingly, both a wild horse and a wild or natur[al] nigger is dangerous even if captured, for they will have the tendency to seek their customary freedom and, in doing so, might kill you in your sleep. You cannot rest. They sleep while you are awake, and are awake while you are asleep. They are DANGEROUS near the family house and it requires too much labor to watch them away from the house. Above all, you cannot get them to work in this natural state. Hence, both the horse and the nigger must be broken; that is breaking them from one form of mental life to another. KEEP THE BODY, TAKE THE MIND! In other words, break the will to resist. Now the breaking process is the same for both the horse and the nigger, only slightly varying in degrees. But, as we said before, there is an art in long range economic planning. YOU MUST KEEP YOUR EYE AND THOUGHTS ON THE FEMALE and the OFFSPRING of the horse and the nigger. A brief discourse in offspring development will shed light on the key to sound economic principles. Pay little attention to the generation of original breaking, but CONCENTRATE ON FUTURE GENERATION. Therefore, if you break the FEMALE mother, she will BREAK the offspring in its early years of development; and when the offspring is old enough to work, she will deliver it up to you, for her normal female protective tendencies will have been lost in the original breaking process. For example, take the case of the wild stud horse, a female horse and an already infant horse and compare the breaking process with two captured nigger males in their natural state, a pregnant nigger woman with her infant offspring. Take the stud horse, break him for limited containment. Completely break the female horse until she becomes very gentle, whereas you or anybody can ride her in her comfort. Breed the mare and the stud until you have the desired offspring. Then, you can turn the stud to freedom until you need him again. Train the female horse whereby she will eat out of your hand, and she will in turn train the infant horse to eat out of your hand, also. When it comes to breaking the uncivilized nigger, use the same process, but vary the degree and step up the pressure, so as to do a complete reversal of the mind. Take the meanest and most restless nigger, strip him of his clothes in front of the remaining male niggers, the female, and the nigger infant, tar and feather him, tie each leg to a different horse faced in opposite directions, set him afire and beat both horses to pull him apart in front of the remaining niggers. The next step is to take a bullwhip and beat the remaining nigger males to the point of death, in front of the female and the infant. Don’t kill him, but PUT THE FEAR OF GOD IN HIM, for he can be useful for future breeding.

Willie Lynch: THE BREAKING PROCESS OF THE AFRICAN WOMAN

Take the female and run a series of tests on her to see if she will submit to your desires willingly. Test her in every way, because she is the most important factor for good economics. If she shows any sign of resistance in submitting completely to your will, do not hesitate to use the bullwhip on her to extract that last bit of [b—-] out of her. Take care not to kill her, for in doing so, you spoil good economics. When in complete submission, she will train her offsprings in the early years to submit to labor when they become of age. Understanding is the best thing. Therefore, we shall go deeper into this area of the subject matter concerning what we have produced here in this breaking process of the female nigger. We have reversed the relationship; in her natural uncivilized state, she would have a strong dependency on the uncivilized nigger male, and she would have a limited protective tendency toward her independent male offspring and would raise male offsprings to be dependent like her. Nature had provided for this type of balance. We reversed nature by burning and pulling a civilized nigger apart and bullwhipping the other to the point of death, all in her presence. By her being left alone, unprotected, with the MALE IMAGE DESTROYED, the ordeal caused her to move from her psychologically dependent state to a frozen, independent state. In this frozen, psychological state of independence, she will raise her MALE and female offspring in reversed roles. For FEAR of the young male’s life, she will psychologically train him to be MENTALLY WEAK and DEPENDENT, but PHYSICALLY STRONG. Because she has become psychologically independent, she will train her FEMALE offsprings to be psychologically independent. What have you got? You’ve got the nigger WOMAN OUT FRONT AND THE nigger MAN BEHIND AND SCARED. This is a perfect situation of sound sleep and economics. Before the breaking process, we had to be alertly on guard at all times. Now, we can sleep soundly, for out of frozen fear his woman stands guard for us. He cannot get past her early slave-molding process. He is a good tool, now ready to be tied to the horse at a tender age. By the time a nigger boy reaches the age of sixteen, he is soundly broken in and ready for a long life of sound and efficient work and the reproduction of a unit of good labor force. Continually through the breaking of uncivilized savage niggers, by throwing the nigger female savage into a frozen psychological state of independence, by killing the protective male image, and by creating a submissive dependent mind of the nigger male slave, we have created an orbiting cycle that turns on its own axis forever, unless a phenomenon occurs and re-shifts the position of the male and female slaves. We show what we mean by example. Take the case of the two economic slave units and examine them close.

THE NEGRO MARRIAGE

We breed two nigger males with two nigger females. Then, we take the nigger male away from them and keep them moving and working. Say one nigger female bears a nigger female and the other bears a nigger male; both nigger females–being without influence of the nigger male image, frozen with a independent psychology–will raise their offspring into reverse positions. The one with the female offspring will teach her to be like herself, independent and negotiable (we negotiate with her, through her, by her, negotiates her at will). The one with the nigger male offspring, she being frozen subconscious fear for his life, will raise him to be mentally dependent and weak, but physically strong; in other words, body over mind. Now, in a few years when these two offsprings become fertile for early reproduction, we will mate and breed them and continue the cycle. That is good, sound and long range comprehensive planning.

WARNING: POSSIBLE INTERLOPING NEGATIVES

Earlier, we talked about the non-economic good of the horse and the nigger in their wild or natural state; we talked out the principle of breaking and tying them together for orderly production. Furthermore, we talked about paying particular attention to the female savage and her offspring for orderly future planning, then more recently we stated that, by reversing the positions of the male and female savages, we created an orbiting cycle that turns on its own axis forever unless a phenomenon occurred and reshifts positions of the male and female savages. Our experts warned us about the possibility of this phenomenon occurring, for they say that the mind has a strong drive to correct and re-correct itself over a period of time if it can touch some substantial original historical base; and they advised us that the best way to deal with the phenomenon is to shave off the brute’s mental history and create a multiplicity of phenomena of illusions, so that each illusion will twirl in its own orbit, something similar to floating balls in a vacuum. This creation of multiplicity of phenomena of illusions entails the principle of crossbreeding the nigger and the horse as we stated above, the purpose of which is to create a diversified division of labor; thereby creating different levels of labor and different values of illusion at each connecting level of labor. The results of which is the severance of the points of original beginnings for each sphere illusion. Since we feel that the subject matter may get more complicated as we proceed in laying down our economic plan concerning the purpose, reason and effect of crossbreeding horses and niggers, we shall lay down the following definition terms for future generations. Orbiting cycle means a thing turning in a given path. Axis means upon which or around which a body turns. Phenomenon means something beyond ordinary conception and inspires awe and wonder. Multiplicity means a great number. Means a globe. Crossbreeding a horse means taking a horse and breeding it with an ass and you get a dumb, backward, ass long-headed mule that is not reproductive nor productive by itself. Crossbreeding niggers mean taking so many drops of good white blood and putting them into as many nigger women as possible, varying the drops by the various tone that you want, and then letting them breed with each other until another circle of color appears as you desire. What this means is this: Put the niggers and the horse in a breeding pot, mix some asses and some good white blood and what do you get? You got a multiplicity of colors of ass backward, unusual niggers, running, tied to backward ass long-headed mules, the one productive of itself, the other sterile. (The one constant, the other dying, we keep the nigger constant for we may replace the mules for another tool) both mule and nigger tied to each other, neither knowing where the other came from and neither productive for itself, nor without each other.

Willie Lynch: CONTROLLED LANGUAGE

Crossbreeding completed, for further severance from their original beginning, WE MUST COMPLETELY ANNIHILATE THE MOTHER TONGUE of both the new nigger and the new mule, and institute a new language that involves the new life’s work of both. You know language is a peculiar institution. It leads to the heart of a people. The more a foreigner knows about the language of another country the more he is able to move through all levels of that society. Therefore, if the foreigner is an enemy of the country, to the extent that he knows the body of the language, to that extent is the country vulnerable to attack or invasion of a foreign culture. For example, if you take a slave, if you teach him all about your language, he will know all your secrets, and he is then no more a slave, for you can’t fool him any longer, and BEING A FOOL IS ONE OF THE BASIC INGREDIENTS OF ANY INCIDENTS TO THE MAINTENANCE OF THE SLAVERY SYSTEM. For example, if you told a slave that he must perform in getting out “our crops” and he knows the language well, he would know that “our crops” didn’t mean “our crops” and the slavery system would break down, for he would relate on the basis of what “our crops” really meant. So you have to be careful in setting up the new language; for the slaves would soon be in your house, talking to you as “man to man” and that is death to our economic system. In addition, the definitions of words or terms are only a minute part of the process. Values are created and transported by communication through the body of the language. A total society has many interconnected value systems. All the values in the society have bridges of language to connect them for orderly working in the society. But for these language bridges, these many value systems would sharply clash and cause internal strife or civil war, the degree of the conflict being determined by the magnitude of the issues or relative opposing strength in whatever form. For example, if you put a slave in a hog pen and train him to live there and incorporate in him to value it as a way of life completely, the biggest problem you would have out of him is that he would worry you about provisions to keep the hog pen clean, or the same hog pen and make a slip and incorporate something in his language whereby he comes to value a house more than he does his hog pen, you got a problem. He will soon be in your house.
Happy Belated Chairmen Fred Hampton

August 31st, 2026

if you don’t know much about Fred Hampton, check out his Wikipedia. a young man by the people for the people, that was killed by the FBI.
Michigan Senate Nominee Abdul El-Sayed stopped at The Breakfast Club

August 31st, 2026

great conversation.
ICE announces that electric shock gloves are incoming

August 21st, 2026

Did y’all see that they want to give ICE electric shock gloves? Even after all the bullshit that they’ve been on since trumps reign at the white house. When it rains, it pours and here at these united states, it ain’t nothing but a muddy field under friday night lights. Though I feels like there’s a large movement of american people that are against the behaviors and tactics on this administration, the spirit of racism lives on, hidden in the shadows. What the american people are willing to withstand and accept in the preservation of america’s racism is far beyond what I ever a imagined. Maybe it’s always been like this and we are just able to see what is really happening in government and around these states because of technology. Information is spreading a lot faster than it use to. But now they can’t hide, or maybe they weren’t even trying to hide in the first place. I don’t believe they care what we the people think of them and their actions. Because as long as they can complete the selfish and individual goals, they don’t care what happens to america. It won’t be their problem. It’ll be ours, the american people. I think the president and his members are willing to do any and everything to preserve their power and statues in America. I don’t know it they are racist themselves or if racism serves them well in their pursues to making profits. Whatever their reason there’s value in what racism is and does for the white or white adjacent american people.

This system, this social experiment known as America can’t see itself without a division line of the well off and the vagabonds, the blacks and white. They need someone to be their “nigger”. They need someone to serve them without question. Good, bad, evil or indifferent. I would argue the interaction between the police officers or law enforcement and those that are the minor and similar if not synonymous with those of the slave and the slaver catcher. There’s just more technology and ways to abuse to the proliterate.

America values what it want, even if there are better ways to better serve and still profit off the people. It’s about exploitation even when it’s not necessary. It’s an american tradition at this point to exploit and profit off the labor of others. Even if the America’s people have to do it to themselves or to their neighbor, as long as they are able to feel closer to the American dream/to their own financial goals. American individualism is what has us here today. This idea that we all did it by ourselves, with no help and no aid on our path to success, we just had to step on a few people to support us on the way up. Today it’s ICE stepping on “illegal immigrants”.
Letters to the abyss

July 22nd, 2026

July 20, 2026

While I was working today, I came across four kids playing soccer against a fence. I guest with the World Cup in the news, the spirit of futbol walks these United States. One kid was in goal between two poles, a white boy, a brown boy, and a black boy ran after the ball as it bounce around in the yellowing grass. The goalie punted the ball and black boy took off after the ball. He must of been young maybe 6 years old. Short little thing. He got the ball and turned around, and the tall brown boy had already bodied him off the ball. “Come on, let him get the ball. You already scored.” Yelled the white boy. he seemed a little older. Seemingly the brown boy played well. And the black boy had only just got the spirit of the game. He responded, “So! ain’t no body taking it easy, on no crybaby.” As he dribbled back with the ball. The little black boy was walking but when he heard this he furled his brown and crossed his arms. I turned away. He knew not that this would be the first of many gripes with the world and I couldn’t relive the pain, knowing nobody was going to make it easy for him. Outside of his family, there are few and far between that are going to help, or teach you when you don’t know.

I pray when he’s my age, things are little easier. The world is a little nicer, the air is cleaner. At his age, I didn’t have a clue about the real world. I didn’t know who I was. I didn’t know what I was. I just was. The veil hadn’t fallen over my face, and even when it did, I wouldn’t understand what had happened. But I knew, something was different.
what is the cost of educating myself?

July 12th, 2026

It cost me everything.

It cost me my best friend. because the moment I start to, in his mind, “outshine him” is the first time he calls me nigger. Not nigga, like he and his family have been calling me since I was in first grade. Which I thought was acceptable at the time. A hispanic child calling his “best friend” nigga because of the music he listens to, because of the American capitalist system he’s engulfed in, because some where along the lines he learned that black skin is synonymous with nigger.

It cost me my cousin. Who because of his lighter complexion thinks that the type of nigga he is and the type of nigga differ. I often wonder when he first called me nigger, with a conniving smile and intention to hurt me, if he fully understood what he was saying to me. And what he was actually saying about himself.

It cost me my father. Who like some conservative black americans, put Christianity above their blackness, above love, above understanding. Teaching non-violence and waiting for great white man in the sky to come save them. “suffer today, for tomorrow when you are in heaven you will be reward for your sacrifice.”

it cost me my peace of mind, because I can see the web of lies pulled over the faces of the majority of americans, black white latino asian. And to survive and even thrive the american of the 21^st century I have to participate in same system that had stolen pan-africans and oppressed them in the first place.

Everyday I feel that I get a little crazier. Every page that turns confirms the ugly true I’ve tried to run away from. Every fear I’ve had as a young boy has become true, and I can’t seem to wake up from this nightmare. When I was a child I had two fear that I can remember. One was that I’d die alone, with no family and no loved one to remember me. To hold my hands in my last moments and tell the lies that never ceases to end, “It will be okay”.

The second fear, a fear that I’ve never quite understood where I developed this fear but all the same I’ve had this fear with me for as long as I can remember. The fear that something is wrong with me and no one ever told me. That in my mind and in the way I interact with the world everything seems okay but under the surface and how I appear in the world, I am sick. I don’t know where this fear came from but if I had to guess, it may have had to do with two student that were in my elementary school. These two students were, and I suppose still are, “mentally retard” or on the spectrum as we say today. I watched Amanda and Jenelle for years as they innocently interacted with my classroom over the years. Everyone knew of Amanda and Jenelle and their limitation and together teachers and students we would allow them to be themselves without judgment. And one day I wondered, if I too was, mentally retard, and if I was, how would I know? I mean I’m in the same school as them, even in the same classroom. Do Amanda and Jenelle know that they are “different”?
Old Notes: North Star

June 28th, 2026

I found an old letter that I wrote to myself around 2018-2019. Questioning.. trying to make sense of my mental landscape titled “Northstar”.

“It’s been a few years since I stopped practicing my faith and since then I’ve been wandering around searching for a north star. Somewhere to plan my flag, a foundation to push off on. I’ve left religion for philosophy, reading the Bushido Code, Huey P. Newton, watching video essays on Carl Jung, and nothing feels quite right. But I think I’m closer today than I was ten years ago. Or maybe I’ve been building my own philosophy, my own code. Every man needs a code. A set of rules that they abide by out of internal conviction rather than external obligation.

That’s what religion brought me. An unquestionable way of life that can’t be challenged, or at least that is the way it was presented to me. Everyone tries to live a certain way, following the rules of the bible.

What I found in reality was no one was living the lifestyle. Though everyone was trying, when emotions ran high, the real person bled through. The person they were trying to leave behind, the person their religion told them was no good, was still there under their Sundays best. The person never changed, they were just repressed. Push down under as far as he could go. But eventually they came up for air.

I don’t think that religion or church, doesn’t address a man’s soul. It leaves everything to imagine and metaphor, open to interpretation. Their examples don’t always translate to the individual but rather sets a standard of what it’s expected. It draws a finish line with no map and no contexts.

Man is meant to be tested and come to his own conclusions after conscious contemplation and reflection. How else can he know his limits and his capabilities? He doesn’t want to find his limitation when it’s life and death. A moment that challenges his entire being doesn’t want to be a split moment decision like in the movies. That means making mistakes, having regrets, not trying to imitate a “god-like” man. Originally and self-experience.

But then I start to question, how does a child find the basics, morals, valves, right and wrong? Is it the duty to the parents or society, community or history? And even then these things are sliding scales. Some parents lie to their kids to preserve their innocence. They say the Easter bunnies and Santa Claus, tooth fairies and what not. Killing a human can be viewed as honorable if it’s done for your country. The best option is to lead by example.”

-Jonathan Figaro
Old Notes

June 18th, 2026

November 18, 2025

What shapes the soul?

As you stare into someone eyes, you wonder what’s brought them to point

March 1, 2024 at 23:02

I don’t know why it is that full moons tug at my soul like waves at the sea. Crashing me into the

shores of self loathing. Destroying hand sculpted Victorian walls of beach castles

In a world where you can YouTube your style and google a belief system, we seem more lost than ever

Date: unknown

That first inhale in the morning, that rush it gives me. My knees buckle. My pupils widen. My mind awakens from dark cave in which it lies

dormant of the night before. Now 1 am truly awake, l as the nicotine rush through the maze of my vein hitting the lobs of my mind. Like oil lubricating the piston walls of an engine at dawn.

June 20, 2025 at 20:34

It’s like I’m addicted to being alone. Alway from the nonsense out side my outside my bedroom door. Alway from that chatter of the 24 hour news cycle. Alway from the nagging of others.

I use to be frightened from being by loneliness.

My biggest fear use to be to was being alone. I used to be in room full of people and still feel like i was the only one there. Maybe because I didn’t feel like i belonged, and even know from time to time i still get chills when it’s just me sitting at the bar. It took years to feel comfort in solitude. In the absence of everyone there’s a peace I can finally feel free in. Where the fear of missing out doesn’t bother me like it once did when I was 19 searching for other til fill the void.

My lover

June 27, 2025 at 16:03

What aspect of yourself do you hide from others? And why?

I hide things I’m working on or whatever artistic thing I do because I’ve been clowned for it in the past. Or someone will take whatever I’m doing and try to shit on it. I find things more sacred when they’re just for me. If it’s just for me. I might put it out but I put it out to push myself to release my work but I do the work for me. I write for me, skate for me blog for me. I come to the point where I feel weird about sharing my passions with people for profit or commerce but if I just do it for free. I don’t have to worry about pimping my passion. I still get the reps and still get the exposure without focusing on the monetary assets of selling art

June 30, 2025 at 18:30

Today’s the day, I wanna see it burn all down from the skyscraper in the distance to the tree in the backyard. Today I feel the weight on my shoulder of worlds gone passed. Today the venom in my pen bites back and poor bastard you hope it kills you or whatever it is inside of you that stops you from holding your breath under water. I want to

July 13, 2025 at 13:17

And the only thing in the way of greatness is me.

I’ve always said if I could get out of my own way.. I’d be great but I wasn’t that I was in my own way it was that I didn’t know. I didn’t have the information I didn’t know what more to give given the limitation that were given to me. I bare the weight of the world on these shoulders and the weight of society in my mind. The only choice I have is to be great because for some reason I was choose.. and these blessing have been bestowed upon me. So the question isn’t why me? But why not?

Greatness can be given but respect must earn.

Hardwork and hardtimes are just apart of any man’s story. And the only thing promised is death.
June 10th, 2026

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