Burning in paradise

Love

January 7th, 2026

I grew up thinking that

Love would be enough. Because

I didn’t have love and I thought that’s all I needed. at home.

love like in the movies, father and son playing catch

Or the geek getting the cheerleader

the best friend that would help hide the bodies

But I didn’t know how the world worked.

I didn’t know about the crooked cops

The soulless politicians, the pimp and preacher, the whore with the beautiful smile, the NRA, the panthers, Joe Pesci, bourdain.

I thought it was all black and white

And in some ways it still is. But love

Can only get you so far.

You need pain and frustration, for a better fuck

Tears to truly enjoy joy

Humor for survival, to laugh throw the tears

Love… love is the sci-fantasy with shitty ending and bad accountant that blew the budget

Love is bad shroom trip in a public place

Love is taking a shit and realizing you don’t have toilet paper
BNP Radio Episode 26: Riding Music

January 2nd, 2026

tracklist
fairwells by dave east & ransom
temple run by ransom, conductor Williams, moonstone j. arrr
a couple minutes (a colors show) by olivia dean
don’t let it go to your head by cleo sol
lesson by Madison McFerrin
one conclusion ray barbee
breaking it in by kennyflowers
i-20 by big k.r.i.t.
elevated by big k.r.i.t.
comin’ up by pimp c
candy by ugk
swishas and dosha by ugk
mirrors by wale, bun b
bmg by Conway the machine
something foreign by sir and schoolboy Q
2mph feat. big k.r.i.t. by dom kennedy
life is beautiful by larry June & 2 Chainz
gas station feat bun b by the cool kids
lost and found freestyle 2019 by asap Rocky, tyler the creator
potato salad tyler the creator & asap rocky
nine point five by talib kweli, styles p, sheek louch, jadakiss, niko is
weekend feat Miguel by mac miller
all night by Beyonce

videos i mentioned:

thank you for listening, remember to read and educate yourself on whats going on!
December 24th, 2025

i love when two worlds collide. i’ve been a big fan of the grits and eggs podcast. i’ve stop listening to just about ever other podcast cause they ain’t really saying nothing in comparison to to grits and eggs. if you know you know. and ali siddiq has been a comedian ive been keeping my eye on since his domino effect special on youtube. a four-part comedy special that is more than just laughs and giggles, it’s character, it’s part of this man’s soul. they sat down today and made for some beautiful discussion that i felt like sharing with you guys. hope you enjoy.
RADIO BNP101.X Episode 25: Plane Down

December 22nd, 2025

Tracklist
torn in two by chuck stranger, the alchemist
power and problems by wale
family business by kanye west
all falls down by kanye west
retail therapy by ardn, ferina
catch a stray by leon Thomas
my muse by leon Thomas
i’m not sure by tems
smoke, drink, break up by nelccia, wale
fuck everybody else by domo genesis, the alchemist
parachute escape/counseling by da$h
the right one by wale, hit-boy
texts go green by drake
room in here ft. the game, sonyae by Anderson .paak
heart don’t stand a chance by Anderson .paak
untitled 05 by Kendrick lamar
paris, Tokyo by lupe fiasco
blame game by kanye west
December 22nd, 2025
BNP101.X Episode 24.2: Please Standby. We’re Experiencing Technical Difficulties

December 11th, 2025

Sorry, after posting yesterday I was informed that audio couldn’t be hear. Come to find out nothing got recorded for the original episode 24 other than my voice here and there. Instead of trying to recreate that session, i just decide to record a whole another show. which i think came out better than the original. i guess that first session was just to shake off the rust. but that being said i checked the audio, did my test and fixed whatever was going on with the record software. WE BACK BABY! live and in full effect! enjoy and thank you for your patience through these difficult times.

Tracklist
lone wolf ft 4batz by leon thomas
treasure in the hills by leon thomas
like i ft andra day by wale
tomorrow today ft. kel-p by wale
know that you are loved by cleo sol
when im in your arms by cleo sol
back to the go ft. vic mensa by chance the rapper
tourmaline by earl sweatshirt
what you need by tems
every kind of way by h.e.r.
come through ft. chris brown by h.e.r.
chill baby by sza
folded by Kehlani
diary by Alicia keys
if i was your girlfriend by prince
lady by D’Angelo
cruisin’ by D’Angelo
unshaken by D’Angelo

Welcome back for season 2! Stay Tuned

RIP D’Angelo </3
December 2nd, 2025

it’s dope to see parent support and trust their children in their choices. hope there are more parents like this in the coming years.
like who likes you

October 28th, 2025

as a teen and even as a young man, you chase women and people that you want or desire to have around you. you might like their physical attributes or the idea of having them in your life. you might even dream about having this person next to you because of what you’ve built them up to be in your mind but a lot of times you’re just chasing that, a dream. a figment of your imagination, and that person is nothing like you’ve built them up to be. and because you’re chasing something that isn’t real you allow yourself to get stepped on and become less of yourself to please them. i heard a pimp once stay like the one that likes you. because that person is with you because they have a genuine interest in being with you. they’ve looked at you and said i like this person so they accept you for who and what you are. there is no chasing, no games to be played. everything that’s done for each other is out of appreciate, love and care. with no hooks at the end of their actions trying to get something out of you. go where you are celebrated and no just tolerated, things will be much smoother and you’ll find that the love you develop for one another is natural.
blind faith

October 23rd, 2025

i was listening to a grits and eggs podcast and they were speaking on faith stunting a person growth and it got me thinking. because at one time my faith was stunting my growth and i have seen people, like my father, faith limit and or restrict them because they can’t see beyond what the church has told them. i had to step away from the church because i was at alter crying every weekend.. because i’m being told by my parents that i’m a bad person, that if i don’t listen to them that i was going to be punished by god and ultimately go to hell. being a child and having no understanding of the world around you and not being able to question anything, your worldview become very small. you just start to do thing because that’s what you’ve been told to do, not understanding your own autonomy or having personal respect. you just follow what everyone around you is doing because thats what seems right.

man once stepped away and educated myself, began to understand what and who i am, where my people come from. i was able to love myself and respect myself because my faith didn’t supersede everything. and looking back it made me angry that was forced into the church without guidance of the actual world. I don’t know my lineage, or my grandmother, i don’t have family stories to pass on to my children. all i have is guilt for trying to pursue the things that make me happy and a long list of things i have to unlearn to continue to grow into the person i want to be. unfortunately i have to step away from my father because the church supersedes the relationship he has with his children. for him there is no question the church. and reading anything other than the bible is a disservice to myself. it sucks for real but it’s a sad truth. and no one, no matter who they are is worth me staying ignorant. I’ve been ignorant, and i’m upset i was so ignorant for so long, if only i had the opportunities for critical thought, and the understanding on reason.

a person has to be able to question and ask why. blind faith is not faith if you can think for yourself. anything reasonable and sound should be able to be questioned and not shun you for having any questions, big or small.
October 19th, 2025